CHE-DENG!

la lang

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 11:38:44 GMT

This is my new chant:
MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO. MUST GET INTO ATENEO.

I'M BACK!! MWAHAHAHA

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 14:48:51 GMT

I just realized that I do not update my journal at all now! And to think that school has started and I would have so much to say.
Actually there really is too much. Oh well, have I told everyone about my goal? It's simple: to free myself of any negativity. Hehehehe. I'm trying people! Have a little faith :D

Oh, one little thing. I just wanted to rave--oh ya, and sort of make yabang that some members of First Unit (woohoo!) stayed pa till 1730H today just to make the cheer. Awww... =) *touched* hehehehe Oh ya, another thing, I was FOD today! Yay! La lang. =) Loves it. (Hobbit: That's hot.)

Hey!

Fri, 27 May 2005 11:22:58 GMT

I am now in the airport lounge of Beijing. I'm having the best time! La lang...Our flight isn't for like two more hours so I just decided to drop by. Btw Sam and Kai, I bought you pasalubong! You BETTER like it!Swear!! :o Hahaha

TRUMPETS STREETDANCE SHOW

Tue, 17 May 2005 14:23:26 GMT

Hey guys! Please watch our show on 31 May 2005 in Megamall Cinema 10 ;) It would mean A LOT to me!! Thanks!! And bring your friends if you want :D
I'll update again for more details :D

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 12:30:10 GMT

F*CK the American voters!! American Idol is really walang kwenta now. Sure, Constantine sucked the other night but that was just ONE bad performance. :((

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 04:36:53 GMT

I'm so depressed. My show in Trumpets was moved AGAIN. Now, I can't be in it. Grrrrrr... Please pray that our trip will be moved na rin but I highly doubt that's possible. Hayyyy

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 13:31:21 GMT

Hmmm... I miss my LJ. I've really been spending more time with my Multiply. Anywho...
My sister and I have officially proclaimed our home as the "Drama Central" which we just love escaping from from time to time. Both of us are just sick of all the bickering and dramatic outbursts that even some of which we are responsible for. EVERYDAY someone is crying or losing their temper. I'm starting to worry that it will even get worse as we get older...I really hope it won't. Someone please tell me it's normal because I'm getting all paranoid again.

back from zamba!

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 12:07:29 GMT

For those of you who don't know, "Zamba" is short for Zambales. Hehe :p
I had so much fun! I felt so free! =) But oh my goodness, I was betrayed again by my two worst enemies: Jose and the tampon. Grr... Hahaha. But all-in-all I had a blast! I'm finally dark! :)

Boracay sucks.

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 14:07:11 GMT

I've never been to Boracay or "Bora" in my life but I officially hate it. I miss my Ate so much that I've been crying every night now. I know, a little melodramatic. But you can't blame me, I frickin live with her! I just don't know how vulnerable I'll be once she gets into NYU *crosses fingers* Oh well...she's finally coming home tomorrow though!! Yayyyy!! And tomorrow will be my first official class in Trumpets PLUS I'm gonna see Sam and Kai again after the longest time! See? I love summer! On a school day, Thursday is the day I totally dread. But tomorrow, CHE-DENG!!!! :D

Btw, I just wanted to share something. Earlier this afternoon I was watching Oprah (woohoo!) and Mary J. Blige sang "No More Drama" and I cried like a baby! And then after Aretha Franklin sang Amazing Grace and again, I cried. That was the first time a song actually made me cry. =) La lang...

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! :)

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:37:56 GMT

I'm so damn happy!! I did it!! Thank you to all those who actually took a bit of their time to pray for me and to wish me luck. :D
I'm glad that TWO of my BIGGEST dreams came true this year. :)

A big "shout-out"

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 15:48:47 GMT

Btw, EELIPHANT and KOBE BEEF: I miss you guys so much!! :((

My Dream Since Forever

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 15:46:00 GMT

Ever since I was an incoming seventh-grader, I had the dream of being a part of the Trumpets Streetdancing Advanced Class. This year--in fact, TOMORROW--I'm finally facing my fear and trying out. I'm asking for all of your prayers. I might just die out of nervousness. :-s Thank you! :) You'll know if I passed if my journal entry tomorrow is happy or sad.

BREATHE, Chelita.

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 09:02:41 GMT

I got my report card today. It wasn't outstanding but it was definitely much better. :) I love Ms. Guloya! Woohoo!! And Mrs. Minoza. I'm so happy, I got HS for my conduct assessment! I know it's babaw for the rest of you but that is a big deal to me!! :D Hehehe. Yay! But one thing, I hate Spanish.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 10:44:46 GMT

Last night I was appointed the official accountant of our Zambales trip. :) I don't think they chose me because I'm mathematically inclined or whatever--and I'm not--but because they know I'll lose it and I'll have to pay them back. :p Haha joke. ANYWAY, I'm really excited! It's the first time I get to go with my cousins without the parents or whatever. And I WILL behave. ;)
Btw, since my lovely sister invited me to go with her and go shopping for her Boracay trip on Sunday, I decided to get out of bed in lieu of staying in the whole day and then complaining about how useless this day was. (Okay, run-on sentence.) I bought like my fourth bathing suit already...and guess what? I've NEVER worn a bikini in my life! Not even when I was a little girl. As in, NEVER. Basta, I think you get the point. Haha. I'm really nerv! Btw people, I have sworn to stay away from McDo as long as I can. (Buh-bye quarter pounder meal! Waahhh!)
Okay, so there. Tomorrow's report card day btw. GOOD LUCK.

Screaming Infidelities

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 14:17:57 GMT

I have forsaken my LJ. I am now officially a multiply whore. Mwahaha :D Go to my Multiply people and add me!

chelitabajita.multiply.com

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 08:40:18 GMT

I would never have thought I'd say this but I like our new moderator...so far. See, that's what we need: someone who is direct to the point and someone who doesn't talk to us like we're retarded. Thank God for that hint of assurance. :)

Btw, I finally cut my hair. Nope, it's not like Ashlee Simpson's (:p) but it's shorter and my neck can breathe again! Haha :p

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 03:54:48 GMT

I can't help but envy those who are having the time of their lives and enjoying their summer. I, on the other hand, have been eating endlessly whatever I can find and then cry the next moment about how fat I am. Of course, I have my days when I can actually go out and have fun but once I get home, I start thinking about it again. I just need peace of mind before I begin having the time of my life. I need it to be settled. I must admit however that the anger has subsided and I'm in much a better mood for tomorrow. I'm not expecting anything because I don't want to end up disappointed. Let's just all pray that he or correction: He doesn't say anything he'll regret tomorrow.

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 03:44:24 GMT

I only read Reg's comment now. I'm so grateful for someone like her in my unit. I love you Reg!! You're simply wonderful. >:D< See you tomorrow, dearie!

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 12:42:58 GMT

I've been looking at my past entries and they're all just depressing. I'd hate to be the cliche teenager who is always crying and ranting but it's inevitable especially when you feel like everything is going wrong and you can't do anything about it. I guess passion really isn't enough. The funny thing is, I used to think I was so strong but I've been more vulnerable than ever. I hate it. "No doubt the universe is unfolding as it should." Like I always say, the universe really hates me. I don't know, did I not pray hard enough? Were my efforts all just useless? Am I really not just meant for this? All these questions are just racing through my mind and it keeps getting more difficult to not get frustrated. For once in my life, I felt like I achieved something... and now I feel like it's being taken away from me.

Earlier this afternoon, I was just so ANGRY at you. I really just wanted to strangle you. But you know what? After you dropped that bomb on us, I'm just really so HURT. Believe it or not, I actually still had an ounce of faith in you but I feel like you abandoned us...and you've left us with some monster. I'm really just losing hope. I know we're supposed to be optimistic but it's inevitable. I.feel.hopeless. The one person who had the power to "save" us is leaving. It's hard enough that our officers are gone (well graduated) and you just had to do that. I'm beyond hurt and I'm beyond disappointed.

Tomorrow is supposed to be one of the "turning points" in a teenage girl's life: PROM. But I think I just had mine today. I could care less about prom--no offense to prom committee people. I just want to make it clear though: I DO NOT REGRET GOING THROUGH EVERYTHING THIS WHOLE YEAR. In fact, joining was probably the best decision I've ever made. That's why I am so greatly affected. The fact that things aren't going right just gets me so emotional. So to anyone who had the patience to read this: excuse me for my intense emotions. That's really how I am. And I think most of you know that. That's why to my unit: I'm greatly sorry for breaking my promise. I said I'd keep my cool but today was just FAR from what I expected.

I guess the "omniscient one" is right. PASSION does mean to suffer because it's obvious all of us suffering right now.

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 12:20:01 GMT

THINGS JUST KEEP GETTING WORSE AND WORSE.

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 13:40:50 GMT

Tomorrow's Graduation. It's been a long year and it wouldn't have been as meaningful without certain individuals who have taught us so much. We will miss them all.

They're what we go to school for...

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 17:22:40 GMT

I HATED MY EXAMS!!!! In lieu of feeling a sense of relief after this week, all I felt (or feel) is total and utter FRUSTRATION. Like Hobbit said, "I never wanna repeat third year ever!!" It's not like I will. But I'm pertaining to the stress that came with this year. I hate hate hate hate school! The only thing that I go to school for is CSDC. Which reminds me, next thursday may be the BIG DAY. God help us.

Oh ya. It's 0130H and I just finished cutting, pasting, etc. I REAAALLYY hope that Friday will go well. The PRESSURE is ON. :o

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 14:36:49 GMT

We ain't going nowhere...we ain't...going nowhere..we can't be stopped now, cuz we're COs for life! :))

How can I think of the future when I constantly find myself stuck in the past?

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 15:23:35 GMT

It's just so difficult to concentrate when there is so much going on in your head. So many thoughts are rushing through my brain that I don't know how to just push them away. A lot of things have happened and are happening right now that I can't seem to determine what I really am feeling. All I'm feeling right now is happiness, excitement, determination, motivation, gratefulness...but on the other hand, there's that frustrating jumble of insecurity, fear, loneliness, and jealousy that constantly irritates me. Believe me. I just want to FORGET about the latter because the former matters more. I wanna stop thinking about it na. It's soooo babaw but it still hurts...even after like a year and a half. Am I lame? Can someone please just tell me HONESTLY? I need someone to put some sense in me or else my brain will totally explode.

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 03:05:59 GMT

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...

It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
And you can't pull me down